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I'm broke. To the lowest level. I don't want anyone know what i'm going to write but I really can't help myself face this alone. I know, writing it here won't help too, but at least this screen know and someday when I read this. I'll be a better person.

I'm sick of hearing yells. They're just yell at each other like they're far. They're using high tones like in an orchestra. All I can do is just be quite and keeping my head down so they don't know that i'm tired.

I'm sick being pushed. It's like I have to win at every chance. I know I'm the only one and everyone puts attention to me. But, I hope that doesn't mean that I have to be perfect in everyways. I'm a human too, I'm a girl too, I'm still 15 and still searching for myself.

I've been a really bad person. I was vein, a liar, bitch, slut, whatever you call it. I was a nasty girl. Then when i'm changing, I realize that everything goes wrong. Too much stuffs gone, too much heart breaks, too much cheats, too much bad things. And I was one of those shits. For you, who ever being ignored or dumped. I apologize, sorry for everything. Sorry cause i'm still can't forget you. I know it's too late but still, sorry. And I wish, I hope, I pray, karma comes to me not in this way. I know I can't set my hopes too high, cause every hello ends with a goodbye. But please, I've fly and fall too hard and now I hope I won't get so much wounds. That's why I'm not telling you all of my problems because most of those are you. You are my problems, love you as always do.

'If God bring you to it, He will bring you through it'
God, Thank You cause i'm still breathing, loving, and thinking.

'Everybody has problems. Everybody has bad times. Do we sacrifice all the good times because of them?'
I have him. That's more than enough.

'Use your smile to change the world but don't let the owrld change your smile'
Be strong, think positive, keep your heads up.

'I'm not telling you it's going to be easy, I'm telling you it's going to be worth it'
'If you want a rainbow, you're going to have to put up with the rain'
Nothing easy, everything needs works, prays, and dreams.

'you are stronger than you think'